This year or so, Qiao Wen's change, no one than Chen Canaan is more clear, just he has not wanted to seriously face, or also really can not think of the reason, just think that such a change, let him surprise, let him feel no better.
After all, people have the instinct to avoid harm.
Until Jovan said those words-which to an outsider might have sounded unbelievable, but to him it was like a sudden, sobering blow to the head.
Yes, how can a person change so much overnight, timid and weak for more than ten years of teenagers, how can suddenly become so brave and calm, and even will use a gun will take bullets also dare to kill.
It wouldn't be for any other reason than it was a complete transformation into a different person.
He enjoyed the benefits of these changes in Xiao Qiao, enjoying the change from an older brother who took care of and protected the other to someone who was protected and taken care of by him, and even because of this change, it made his feelings for Xiao Qiao change from a brother-like fondness to an attachment to his lover.
He even instinctively went so far as to avoid those times when the two of them grew up together - because the Xiao Qiao of his memories and the Xiao Qiao of today were just a different person.
Now that the answer is revealed, he has to face the reality that his brother, whom he has been protecting for more than ten years, has long since left him, and he is still enjoying a happier life because of his departure, even to the point of forgetting the real Little Joe.
That's the little Joe he grew up with as a brother!
But what was wrong with Joe Man? Wasn't it because he was too good to fall in love with himself, he didn't mean to replace Xiao Qiao.
Thinking of Qiao Wen saying that he wanted to return to his own world, the remorseful guilt in Chen Canaan's heart for forgetting Xiao Qiao turned into the fear of losing Qiao Wen.
This man was the one he loved, he had already lost his brother, and if even the current Jovian was gone, what meaning did the world have for him?
He clenched his teeth tightly and endured the pain in his heart, pounding his head a few times, just wanting himself to hurry up and wake up and pull himself together.
Meanwhile, Qiaowen, who was standing inside the door, listening to the subtle movement outside, reached out to grip the door handle, but after hesitating for a moment, he didn't open it after all.
The next morning, Jovian, who had not slept well, woke up and went out on the balcony to work out. He had just raised his hands in the air when a sudden "Gudmunen" came from the side of the room, breaking the peace of the morning.
Because the sound was so loud, it almost scared him. He subconsciously turned his head and forgot to lower his raised hands.
Only to see Chen Canaan resting one leg on the balcony, facing his way, waving at him while pressing his leg. With a pair of panda eyes that were obviously sleep-deprived, he revealed an exaggerated smile, as it looked like it was deliberately squeezed out, thus appearing somewhat unnatural.
Jovian responded with a wordy wave, "Good morning."
When he finished, he felt a little funny again, but it was not good to laugh in front of him, so he could only turn around and curved the corners of his mouth silently.
He worked out a little for a moment and went back inside to wash up and go out. It wasn't quite early enough for the elevator to be almost empty, and just as he stepped in to hit the close button, a figure suddenly rushed in.
Chen Canaan stood beside him, pressed the elevator button, and after standing up straight, as if she suddenly thought of something, she silently moved to the side again and whispered, "I'm sorry!"
Qiaowen looked at him in confusion and quickly realized, shaking his head in amusement and reaching out to rub his large, slightly bowed head, "Although I didn't grow up with you Little Joe, the days we've gone through together in the past year or so are real, and whether you resent me or not, Nan, you're a good brother to me."
The two had been even more intimate before, but after completely accepting that Qiao Wen was another person, being touched on the head by him like this at the moment, Chen Canaan only felt a little soft all over, and a flash of redness leapt up to the base of her ears, stammering and whispering back, "I'm not complaining about you, I'm complaining about myself."
Jovian laughed, "No one else would have imagined this in the world, you don't have to blame yourself."
Chen Canaan was silent for a moment before asking again in a low voice, "Do you really want to go back to your world?"
Qiaowen looked at him and said, "Actually ...... not very much."
Chen Canaan sniffed and sighed in relief without a trace.
The elevator door opened and the two walked out side by side. Jovian casually asked, "Have you had breakfast?"
Chen Canaan shook his head, "Not yet."
Jovan: "So go to a teahouse and eat together?"
Chen Canaan nodded vigorously.
The two of them exited the building and crossed the street together, and as a car sped past, Chen Canaan subconsciously blocked in front of Qiao Wen.
Jovian watched his movements silently, the loss of the last few days, swept away, and shook his head in amusement.
The teahouse was already past its dining peak, but the crowd wasn't too small, so the two walked in, said hello to the granny at the cashier's desk, and came to sit at an empty seat in the corner.
Auntie Chen, who was holding the order form, came over and greeted Qiao Wen with a smile before nonchalantly slapping the back of Chen Canaan's head twice, saying, "Loser, finally you know to come and eat? I thought you were going to be a god?"
Chen Canaan glanced at Qiao Wen, who was curving his mouth across the room, rubbed the back of his head, and muttered, "Auntie, I'm starving, quickly have the kitchen stir-fry me a portion of beef river."
Auntie Chen called out towards the kitchen and asked Qiao Wen again, "Ah Wen, what do you want to eat?"
Jovan: "Fish and chip congee is fine."
Auntie Chen nodded and gave her unlucky nephew another hateful pat on the head before turning to leave.
Qiao Wen lost his smile and lifted his eyelids to look at the youth across from him, however just as he met those dark and heavy eyes, the person who was originally sneaking a peek at him immediately lowered his eyes like a thief.
Jovian: "......" What the hell is this guy up to?
In fact, it's not a blame on Chen Canaan, since he accepts that Qiao Wen is no longer Xiao Qiao, his mindset has become completely different, and there's no way to face him openly like before - because this person is not the younger brother that he grew up with, but a man who made himself fall in love.
So much so that for a while they were afraid to meet his eyes.
Jovian knew he was still squirming, but it was almost a bit of a crying shame that the guy always looked at himself quietly over a breakfast, and then hurriedly averted his gaze when he looked up.
Finishing the last mouthful of porridge, he set the spoon down and looked up at him with good grace, and, as expected, the guy immediately lowered his head again.
"Nan, I know you need time to get used to it, but we've been together for over a year after all, and I'm a little sad that you're so raw!"
Chen Canaan hurriedly shook his head and looked up at him, "I just ......"
"Just what's wrong?" Jovian simply reached out and took his hand on the desktop. The other man did subconsciously try to wrench it away, yet he held on for dear life, "Still not raw?"
Since realizing that she loved him, Chen Canaan had also had many unclean thoughts about him, but that all needed the right time and place, and on weekdays when the two of them were cuddling, he was still very pure in his head.
But at this moment, just by him holding his hand, Chen Canaan could already not resist, the whole person burned from head to toe: "I ...... I ......"
Stammering for half a day but couldn't get a complete sentence out.
Because of this more than a week, he was living in the martial arts center and not seeing the sun, the person whitened back a few points, and thus when his face reddened, it was easy to be seen by people.
Not only could Jovian see him blushing, he also felt the hand he was holding suddenly become hot, and with a slight flinch, he released the man.
Is this guy shy about himself?
He didn't know whether to laugh or cry for a moment, rubbing his nose and feigning pity, "Nan, I came to this world, everything is strange to me, except for Granny, only you are the closest. If I don t have you, I don t even know how to live on here, you are now like this ......"
Chen Canaan suddenly grabbed his hand and drew up his voice, "Xiao Qiao, you're also the closest person to me, don't worry, I'll continue to protect you and take care of you!"
Because the voice was so loud, it was almost like a roar, almost scaring the other guests. Auntie Chen heard the commotion and walked over at a brisk pace, slapping him on the head again, "Bad boy! What's wrong with you these days?"
"It's fine, it's fine!" Jovian laughed.
Auntie Chan sighed and said bitterly, "Ah Man, you don't know, this guy is really like a ghost these days, first he stayed at the martial arts center and didn't go home, and I don't know what he did at the center, and his younger brothers came to make a report, saying that he is crazy. After returning home, he also cried and laughed and did not eat, so much so that Howie was so scared that he did not dare to sleep in the same room with him, and asked him to say nothing. We grown-ups can't control him anymore, so you take good care of him."
Jovian nodded, "I will."
Auntie Chen looked at her stupid nephew and shook her head as she walked away.
Qiao Wen's gaze fell on his own hand that was held tightly, Chen Canaan was about to let go of his hand again because of his movements, but was grabbed by Qiao Wen, "Since you want to continue to protect me and take care of me, then don't get raw with me."
Chen Canaan didn't struggle any more, only her face was still red like a monkey's butt, just like like a shy big girl, her eyes dodged, mumbled for a moment, and whispered, "Are you going to work? I'll drive you."
Jovian nodded, "Uh-huh."
The two said goodbye to the elders of the restaurant and went to the garage to get their car.
After getting into the car, Qiao Wen said as he fastened his seatbelt, "Nan, although I'm not the Xiao Qiao of old, I'll take on his identity and bring his share to live well in this world. I wasn't going to tell anyone else because it's just too unbelievable, but you're different to me, so I don't want to lie to you forever, I have to let you know who the person you're with day in and day out is."
Chen Canaan nodded, his heart a little sour for a moment. That's right, Qiaowen could indeed choose not to say anything, allowing himself to live in self-defeating happiness forever.
But he'd rather risk his own resentment against him by telling himself the truth, just so he wouldn't have to lie to him.
He'd been so good to himself, and he'd avoided him before.
Fuck, kinda want to cry again.
But the manly man was embarrassed to cry in front of Qiao Wen again, so he tried to suppress the emotions that were churning in his chest, and after a long time, he suddenly asked again in a muffled voice as if he remembered something, "Xiao Qiao, why are you so good to me?"
If he was still the Xiao Qiao he grew up with, it would make sense to be this kind to himself - because he had taken care of and protected him for so many years. But the current Qiao Wen, who was originally a stranger to him, had nevertheless thought of him in everything over the past year, and this goodness was even more than that of the former Xiao Qiao.
Qiaowen turned his head to look at him, silent for a long time, and let out a low laugh, reaching out and rubbing his head affectionately, "Silly boy, because you deserve to be nice to me!"